As I set here my days of not working and kids not going to school are quickly coming to an end. When school let out I could not have imagined how this summer would end. However, given how nothing goes without a catch around here I should have been more prepared. We have went to Washington D.C., Baltimore, Maryland and New York City. Most would agree that's a lot of travel for a few months, not my family. Ad one trip to Atlanta and at least 2 more scheduled in the next 2 weeks. Wow its been one crazy summer.
Don't get me wrong. It has been my favorite summer by far. I have grown alot. Hard to believe that at 31, 2 kids and being married for almost 13 years that I still need to grow up some. I guess with all the quality time I spent in the car I had a lot of time to think. Seeing the kids in New York City was amazing and made me realize how amazing life is. Any one who knows my kids now the struggles we face daily with them. For some reason Cheredith could breath so easy while there. No inhaler, no wheezing or tight chest. She was able to enjoy every bit of the city and can't wait to go back. Just the other day she told me how much she missed New York. With Matthew being autistic I wasn't sure how the city would effect him. He was at home there. He seemed so at peace. It kept his senses going and I loved every minute of it. I wouldn't say he didn't act autistic there just that his autism blended well with the City. It was great. Seeing my kids like that was worth every bit of the trip.
Not long after returning we started focusing on Matthews upcoming trip to Atlanta to a Neurologist at Emory. Since we are already going there I thought it would be great for him to be able to see a GI doctor there as well on the same day. That didn't work as planned but we could see the GI doctor sooner so we took it. On August 10th we took off to Atlanta at 5:30 in the morning. The experience was great. The doctor there was amazing and seemed to share our concern for Matthew. He ordered many test, one which requires us to go back to Atlanta tomorrow. Of course we couldn't go to Atlant without eating at the Varisty. I sometimes question if I am going overboard with all these doctors but after Matthew waking up this morning with his stomach issues rearing its ugly head I know I am not. I just want answers and for him to not deal with this anymore then he has to. He is a true inspiration. He never lets any of his issues slow him down. It amazes me.
Now back to how this summer helped me grow up. I feel like I was so wrapped up with work, doctors, and life that even though I thought I was fully relieving on God but I wasn't. I was not close to God at all. I was doing all I could to fix my life and my families life. I was exhausted. Seeing my kids in NYC made me realize that. Between reading my bible, doing a bible study, our incredible Sunday school class and reading the book "blue like Jazz" I started to examine my relationship with God on a whole new level. I scraped away all that I felt I should do or all I felt I knew about God and started seeking Him on a new level. I realized that God isn't at all who I thought He was. He is so complex and yet so simple at the same time. I think I finally realize why people would give everything up just to tell others about Him. Why so many people have died rather then deny Him. I have no clue what is going to happen with all of us. I am currently waiting on Matthew's doctor to call me back, and depending on the findings in Matthews test tomorrow he may have to go to Atlanta for therapy. I could set back and worry, but what will that do. It may be hard and it may be hectic but I fully believe God will provide all we need. I can't wait to be able to share with others how God will see us through this crazy time in our life.
